People often ask me “Why do you workout like that? Can’t you just move a little as other people do? This hard workouts and vigorous, intensive loading is for professional athletes!”Right there, in this moment, when I hear this something stabbs my heart. Seems like the pain hidden deep inside my heart starts crying. Seems like it is flapping in my heart, trying to remind me for my lost dreams,hopes and expectations…
I do not know why people always try to understand others! They try to explain other people’s behavior in a logical way,…logical from their own point of view. From my experience I came to the conclusion that we shouldn’t judge others or try to understand them. Eeverybody lives in his own reality. Your own disappointments that keep you awake every night and your own hopes that give you strength to wake up every morning and face another day! Everybody finds a sparkle in a different place and more often than not there isn’t a logical explanation. It just happens…exhausted from failures,crushed by your own disappointment, one day you just happen to be in a place, which in other people’s eyes is usual and you feel captivated! Right there, in that exact moment you realize that you are in a place, where you feel like yourself again. A place where you might not live your dream the way you imagined it, but you will still get to experience the feeling, that it could have brung you.
For me this place is the gym. For me this thing are workouts! From the day I started playing basketball, I dreamed for professional sport. I wanted it so bad and I worked so hard to get there some day…the day I injured…the day all my dreams shattered into pieces in front of my eyes, that day I lost part of myself! I knew that no matter how much I wanted it, no matter how hard I tried, there will be always that burning feeling, which will remind me what I won’t have…
What I love about my workouts now, is that they give me exactly this- the opportunity to live the lost dream, even though in a different way! My workouts give me the chance to challenge myself and my body every single day. They give me the opportunity to be able doing things, which most people consider “reserved” for professional athletes! Thus, at least for an hour in the gym, I manage to experience what slipped from my hands in the past! Thus, at least for a while I get to experience the emotion, I usedto experience every time I stepped on the court…Thus, at least for an hour I get to feel like something more…
So…don’t try to understand me…
This is my reality and I feel happy to be able doing all this things…
Don’t judge me…like I wouldn’t! For everything in life there is a reason! What matters is for every one of us to know the reason for himself…but it isn’t our duty to give explanations to others! Nobody knows what other people paied, to get where they are today!
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I reccomend you read the Interview with Robb Wolf by Michael McCoy!
