The silence of an early morning- the stolen moments from the day, when everybody and everything is still asleep. You get the chance to be alone with yourself- with your true essence. You are alone with your true self, which you are not trying to “decorate” or change, just so you can fit in somebody’s notions, expectations or just in your primal desire to be accepted. The moments when you are YOU in your wholeness- a complex of the polarities, which are hidden in your soul and which are constantly fighting for control over your thoughts and a possession of your personality.
I feel like writing about… ego- the main source of each emotion, each action that it provokes.
I think that I could write a book about ego and its manifestations; about our inability to use it consciously and handle it as an armor, which helps us conquer the life we long for.
If I have to sum up my philosophy about life, I’d say that the ego is our biggest strength and our biggest weakness; the inability to enjoy life, comes from our inability to understand our own ego.
Many of us are under the constant control of the emotions, which we cannot obey, because we’ve lost our ability to observe our own experiences and filter them according to our own desires and beliefs. We get distant from our own self and focus on our peers. We do it, broke under the heavy duty to get to know our essence, and forced to search for a place an object, where we can project everything that we are incapable to recognize in our own self and everything that we demonize in correspondence with our private interests.
The life of most people is filled with fights with the ego- life filled with fights with our own self. We fool ourselves (more…)